Why do I suffer so much?

[Anonymous]

I have been bullied all my life in every school, church, and just about everywhere else. Then I get bullied in every job I work at. The first job started with 1 manager messing with me for no fault of my own and it changed to the rest of the managers. Even one of the managers didn't like me because I didn't flirt back with her and she was lesbian. Then it went from the managers to all the employees. The bullying goes on at every job. Then I go online and I have people attack me for no reason. I was trying to vent on a livestream and I had some inconsiderate people make fun of me and then there's always that 1 person who has a "holier than thou attitude." And say I'm sorry because I am a bad perosn and I'm being punished. The person was bullying me to the point where I was trying to end life on the stream. Then I deal with evil neighbors in every apartment I live. No matter where I live they always think they own the place and start banging loud noises and if I accidentally make any noise they bang as loud as they can. I can't attract any friends to save my life. All the friends I used to have wanted to get me into all kinds of trouble and attracting a partner I must be cursed or destined to be alone. All I do is attract creepy men who look like they have evil intentions. The way they act is predatory and more of a serial k ller feeling.

[Soteris]

Wow that sounds like you have had more than your fair share of bad luck. Honestly, at that point even if you turned everything around it almost feels like your experience will still be tainted by your previous experiences. That said, I do have a suggestion for you. You are in a very unique situation, being young and being so isolated.

I do not know how far you studied in school but you can apply for free university and such all around Europe. I suggest Germany personally, but you do you. You should very much consider just grabbing your stuff and leaving wherever you are and go someplace else. Find you friends, find new opportunities and maybe get a free education and citizenship at the same time.

Having a fresh restart might just be what you need to get away from all that negativity in your life. Dont let it hold you back from enjoying yourself, this is the time of your life where you should feel free to accomplish anything.

[jshm2]

You're not suffering bad luck. You're just a chicken shit push over, lacking assertiveness. Of course people are going to dog pile onto you or have you as their punchbag.

You need a personality makeover and a new outlook on life. Get your bum ass out that city and move somewhere to start again. Go Viking, if needs be, but stop being the passive loser you are.

https://www.youtube.com/embed/9fdqJhNbnSY

[OddBeMe]

Sounds like a you problem. Dont let them do that. It’s not muscle size or being a bigger asshole. It’s getting more confidence. Bullies hate confidence because they don’t have it.

[FreyaRed]

Lower your expectations toward humanity