Should I leave the job due to social awkwardness?

Anonymous

I got a job as a nurse luxury senior home. Everyone there is super smiley, social, welcoming, talkative. The type of environment where I must say hello, small talk, goodbye to everyone. The big problem is that I am an introvert, shy, quiet, socially awkward, anxious type. My coworkers can kinda see that already. Its embarrassing. I'm terrible at small talk and ridden with anxiety.

Despite this, I was hired. During orientation, my director told us that we must facilitate and environment where we must be social, friendly, acknowledge everyone, small talk with everyone like HOSPITALITY. Impeccable mannerisms, great small talk, which I just entirely suck at. The entire time, I felt out of place. Like wtf am i doing here? I so do not fit in.

I'm the type of person who can't even look at someone in the eyes for too long. A few people already have mistakened my lack of social skills for "being rude" already. I feel like quitting. But I also don't want to quit because its such a high paying job. I feel like the more that I am there, the more embarrassed I get about my social ineptness.

I want to just put the hoe down and quit. but my boss has a long time ago and she has waited A MONTH for me to begin training. I don't want to disappoint her by quitting so she would have to search for someone else ALL OVER AGAIN.

Should I just leave? Its just uncomfortable being there. Having been there for 2 days, my social skills have improved a bit. But I still have a long way to go.

Should I leave the job due to social awkwardness?
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