Two weeks ago, the only girl I ever cared about friendzoned me and I truly do not want to live anymore. Life is just crap, I hate it, I hate everything about it, I wish I was aborted, in fact, if I had a time machine I'd go back and kill myself on the day I was born, that's how much I utterly despise my life and myself. This one girl, she was one of the few things that made me happy, I loved her more than anything, more than myself, but, apparently I'm worth nothing to her. And please don't give me that nonsense about how "oh, but, at least she wants to be your friend" or "oh, that means you're even more special to her" that's a lie and you know it. I'm not good enough, I'm not good enough to actually be loved, just to be a little lapdog, a "friend". And if you think I only became her friend to get her, don't, I liked her because I got to know her, not the other way around. I'm just so miserable and angry, I wish everyone felt this way, I really do, I did nothing to deserve this, but I still got it anyway, I wish everyone knew how it felt to want to out a gun to your head. It's not fair, I would have done anything for her, so of course I'm, "just a friend", as if I'm less than she is. And don't give me that bs about how I'll "find someone else" or "love comes to those who wait" or anymore more nonsense about love, those are just lies for the weak, the reality is just cruel and pointless, and death is probably the best solution anyway. I don't care about any other girl, they're not her, they're worthless to me. Dying is all I really want, I don't care about what's after death, I don't care if there's nothing after death, I just don't want to be feeling this anymore. I'm a man, a pathetic excuse for one, if I was a real man, I wouldn't care. Oh well, the one girl I loved/wanted basically told me I'm worth nothing and that I'm below her, and, you know what she's right. Right now, I just want to go and die, I'm going to die alone and as a virgin anyway.
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Sweetheart, what is happening over here? You should never let someone else's actions make you feel like you need to end your life. Nobody is worth that... I'm sorry that you got friendzoned, especially since she clearly meant so much to you, but... there is no proof, no evidence that there is only one person for each of us. Think about all the girls that you have met... that's SUCH a small fraction of all the girls in the world... do you really believe that it's impossible for you to like another girl? You never know- later on in life, you may find certain personality and physical traits attractive that you didn't before... Peoples' tastes change over time as a result of our experiences, our mental and physical development- I know my tastes vastly changed and continue to change. To end it all now is such a disservice to yourself. Finding a partner is just -one- aspect of life. How about all the amazing things that you can do on your own? How about the people you can help by being their friend? Or your role as a son or a sibling? It doesn't even have to be that profound... just holding the door open for a random person who had been having a bad day can change his or her life for the better. If you remove yourself from this grand equation, you're going to throw us all off. Do you really want to do that? :p1