I keep wanting to end my life?

[Anonymous]

For the last 4/6 weeks I've wanted to end my life, only things stopping me is:
-Friends
-Animals
-Family
I know for certain if I go through with it I'm going to ruin my dad's life and it'd be so fucking selfish of me. My brother might also go off the rails and I don't want to be the reason he ruins his life. My best friend actually said to me in September 'If you end your life I'd probably also end mine'.
If someone doesn't want to be a part of this world anymore they shouldn't be forced to live it. I'm seeing a counsellor but I still want to end it.
Do you think I should just go through with it and hope for the best for everyone I leave behind.. Or do you think I should stop being selfish and live for others?

[Bandit74]

It's not selfish nessesarily but it will definitely have a drastic effect on those who cared about you. There's no way around it, every action has a reaction. Even the smallest things can have major impactss on the course of events.

I do believe it's your life and you can do whatever you want with it. You aren't obligated to live for others.

Personally Id be lying if I said I hadn't had similar thoughts but just like you I have people who would be devastated and that makes me feel guilty. Also at the end of the day I'm probably too much of a coward to actually go through with it.
Im not religious so the way I look at death is that there's three possibilities for what happens after death...
1. There's nothing
2. There's something but it's worse than this current reality
3. There's something but it's no better/no worse than the current reality
4. There's something and it's better than the current reality.

Options 1 scares me
If there's nothing, I'd kind of like to make the most of what I have before it's gone. I guess I still have hope which in my opinion is the most valuable thing a person can have, it's the last defense.

Option 2 just sucks, If there is life after death exists and it's worse than this then I'd like to put that off as long as possible

If option 3 is true then there's really no gain, might as well just keep going.

Option 4 is the only one that's really desirable but my current reality, although less than what id consided ideal isn't anywhere near bad enough to justify the risk.

But that's just my opinion, I don't know what you're life is like or what you're going through.

I think most of the time like the expression goes:
suicide is just a permanent solution for a temporary problem :/

[Bandit74]

*four possibilities :)

[Sinister]

I've buried about 3/4 friends who have committed suicide, both military and high school friends and I don't think it was selfish. I do find it sad, baffling and makes me wonder why they didn't reach out to me or at least say good bye. I don't think it's selfish, it's your life and if you want to end it, who am I to stop you. I just hope you are more than okay in knowing that things WILL forever be different for the people you leave behind. I don't think it's cowardly either, it's your life not mine.

[Sinister]

Fuck you hater, I'd rather you leave a comment, coward.

[Suspected]

Don't end your life man. There is so much to live for, your family and friends are one. Then there is love, experiences (good and bad), travel, passion, the wind, the rain, books, knowledge. There is so much! I believe we all were put here to accomplish something. You just have to believe that you are truly loved and valued.

Please message me if you would like to talk or share anything. :)

[Anonymous]

Just know that there is nothing else. You get this one brief moment on earth and there is nothing afterward, so you should enjoy the brief time you get and forget the stupid stuff.
Why would you solve a temporary mundane issue with a permanent and extreme solution?

[ShadowR]

please do Not end your life. i promise things will get better. this is a test from God, if you give up you fail the test. please don't give up. Never give up. and get some help, and i do Not mean this in an offensive way. EVERYONE needs helps once in a while. please Live, stay alive. please things will get better. everyone has a purpose, its just a matter of finding it. Please everyone makes a difference in the world. and turn to God, to help you. Remember God made you, and God LOVES EVERYONE. And i CAN Not say this enough Please Live. Stay Alive.

[JustinCaseUDontKnow]

You got realize how many hearts will hurt for you when your dead
this is serious issue and you should figure why you feel this way
You know i been this way for years off and on but i try keeping my
chin up and going on with life

[yaddayaddayadda02]

I say you live for yourself. Nothing you are going through hasn't been lived by someone else before.

[TXNGAL506]

Why do you want do something so drastic? What has happened to make you feel that is the only way?

[fluffydevil]

Buddy don't do so
Yea live for the others while in fact you will be living for yourselves too
Its temporary and the depression will go away

[Anonymous]

Before you kill yourself, at least give God a try. Like the poster ShadowR said, this is a test. At least see if God will fail you. (I know He won't).

[Shut_Up_And_Marry_Me]

I get like that when I get bored/depressed. Either way it'll work out so pick whichever you feel most strongly about.