What I mean is that no matter how close you are with someone, they ALWAYS have someone they're a lot closer with. You're always the second option, or even third or fourth. You're NEVER anyone's first choice. I feel like that's how it has always been for me, everywhere I go, with all the friends, everything. Even when it comes to crushes, you may find out that a boy likes you, just to later realize they like someone else more :( I just wanna be someone's first choice for once in my life.
Anyone can relate? Anyone? How do ya deal with feeling like garbage basically?
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I feel like that constantly. Even my closest friends always had another friend who was more important, more loved. It seems like every person in my life has someone else they value/like more than me.
Honestly, I just distance myself a little more. If I don't care whether I'm a specific person's first choice, it doesn't hurt when I'm reminded. There's still the general loneliness to deal with, but I try not to think about it. I distract myself instead, try to find something to keep me occupied, do things that make me happy.
It still sucks, though. It'll probably always suck.1
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