Most Helpful Girl
Yes, that's normal. It's also normal not to.
Probably best you don't marry the first person you ever date, honestly. Dating a few people helps you get a handle on how to act. I'm sorry for the heartbreak you're feeling now though. I am sure you're going to feel pretty rough about it for maybe even a long time. Focus on becoming the person you want to be, the boyfriend you want to be to the next special person. Use what you're feeling now to teach you and make you stronger. It will not hurt like this forever.
Most Helpful Guy
A lot of people do it after they've had a bad breakup, but I think it's stupid. It's stupid how people care so much about someone and then are happy to completely erase them from their life. It makes me question whether it was ever genuine love.