Fast forward to NC, and breaking NC. First times I reach out to him pouring out my heart and at the time he was distant (obviously hurt).
The second time he reach out in September-October, and we ended up kissing and holding hands. He tried to kiss again for the second meet up but I refused, since he was saying hurt he was and he would maybe download tinder (he never used it). Then he got mad at me and went for no contact.
In March he reach out to me and we started taking as "friends" but he wanted to let me know he is moving out on how own and if we could try again (I wanted to but I didn't felt healed yet, I just stopped feeling hurt from the breakup but still didn't heal to what originally broke me down).
Last time I reach out last month to just wish him happy birthday, he said thank you. I wnated to talk more but I was unsure if I should. And right now I am missing him and overthinking that he is moving on
I have tried to not be manipulative and controlling to him and I told him "I don't want you to just wait on me, I want you to live life. You will learn so much about yourself now that you are living on your own and right now I am not ready to date anyone, at all because I have my own baggage to deal with".
He said he wants to go to my graduation (in December) would it be too long to wait or he would moved on by then?