I broke up with my extremely toxic girlfriend who always used to apply psychological torture to me during our relationship and it lasted 5 months only. I would genuinely like to love her with my purest and heartiest feelings but she always said me that she had no emotional intimacy whenever we meet up each other. She had a long-lasting relationship before me which took almost 4 years so she said that she had some trust issues but I have terribly been affected with this sticky situation. She always talking about her ex, giving me subliminal messages about him. Despite having been in clearly rebound, I tried to love and care her and never left her at anytime.. And finally our relationship has ended by my mistake, I commented one of my woman colleague's instagram picture as wonderful and she just immediately cut me off for that reason. It's been seven months since our breakup but I feel myself so crammed, lonely and miserable. Nobody understands me in this hard time. Moreover, in worse, I have lost my job which was set for my by her mother and then probably they led me to get fired from the work for being breakup. Now, Neither I am feeling ready to love the new person nor I still love her.. But I fed up with loneliness.. How can I deal with this extremely complicated situation?
Firstly what I feel is you shouldn't think that you are the reason of breakup. Just because you commented on your colleagues photo doesn't make you the culprit of the broken relationship if the comment wasn't to cheap, flirty, offensive or something which could be counted as betrayal to your partner. So don't blame yourself for it. As you mentioned your ex girlfriend has a previous long term relationship and she always talked about her ex with you means clearly you were rebound and you knew it. Also she has not completely moved on from her ex therefore you never felt chemistry into relationship. It might happen that she was using you to make him feel jealous or using your love and kindness to overcome her lonely patch of life until she found someone else. And it might be a possibility that she found someone and gave you a stupid reason fof breakup and kicked you out of the company.
The reason you are feeling not ready for relationship might be that you are not completely healed from your previous relationship. You are carrying an emotional baggage which you should drop off so yout next relationship won't be harmed by it. You should give yourself time to heal and focus on yourself for sometime. Other reason might be that you gave her too much of yourself and you took it so personally that you are afraid to love someone deeply. You dont wanna feel this again in your next relationship hence you are trying to shut yourself emotionally and holding your heart so tightly to avoid falling for wrong person that you are not letting yourself fall for new person. So you have to forgive and forget. Stop regretting and start healing. Leave emotional baggage and live life free. I know this isn't that easy for person who is going through such times but it will help you a lot for moving on and giving your times and efforts for someone who deserves you. AND YES SHE DOESN'T DESERVE YOU by the way she treated you.
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I feel like the situation is anything but complicated. A male friend of mine who is a great guy and works as a lawyer went through something similar. Girl would not stop talking about how good the sex with her ex (they dated 3 years then she dated a few guys since/short hookups only and finally settled with this current friend of mine into a place together. She would not stop talking about how with her ex (she acts like she and her ex are still connected/together in her mind and tries to project it into reality even though her ex is a pos and it was years ago when they broke up anyway) was to her girlfriends, blatantly in front of the male she was seeing (they were also engaged at this time and 8 months into dating - dumb on my male friends part too in my opinion).
He should have had a talk about that the second time it happened if it became clear it wasn't a one off she kept mentioning - and told her to go back to her trash ex who treated her like shit if she finds it so nice - which she wouldn't chose to do - and he should have had some self respect to set boundaries for himself. She doesn't respect him because he's too nice to set boundaries like this so she does it more as what I call a BS test - too test what kind of level would cause her man to stand up for himself or not - and he fails frequently at it confirming he is low value partner/weak in her eyes so she does it more.
Congratulations on finally breaking free from the chains! Now, heal yourself by not jumping into another one âď¸right away. Learn to be strong on your own without needing another person. Enjoy your single life until youâre ready to love again. Life is too short to overthink. Youâre not alone. Youâre stronger than you think! I wish you the best
This is why people should watch out for redflags before dating. People pick up on red flags like girls who clearly have no feeling for them or are using them or are narsistic they choose to ingore this because the girl is pretty. Next time dont ignore it.
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You need time to grieve man...
You need to sort these things out. I suggest therapy because you have a lot to unpack. You've been hit personally and professionally and that can get overwhelming.
Personally, I don't think it is complicated, but no matter what I say, it isn't what you want or needed to hear. Go to therapy, get your thoughts sorted out, and maybe you'll find a way out of this hole you got put in.
It takes time to heal unless u find the right medicine (It not being drugs or anything but an escape or someone you'd feel comfortable with and would not have similar traits as ur previous partner).
Because you are also toxic because of that partnership, you need a detox. Be with your friends and enjoy the time you have.
you don't you just move on. if she broke up with you over a comment then she was looking for any excuse to break up with you and there were other issues that had to be addressed
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