Break Up & Divorce

Not really a question more so a rant?

I've been on and off with this guy for 3 years and last night I had to accept rhat he is simply never going to change. I love him so much, so much It hurts. We had gotten back together again for the idek what time 4th or 5th time in March and I genuinely thought he was changing. We were so good and I wanted to believe that he believed we were so so good too. Looking back there were some signs that he was still a liar but I looked aside because he was trying he actually tried and it made my heart warm up. But in mid may I began to really see that leopards don't change their spots he started going days without calling me texting me or seeing me and eventually I found out he started seeing someone else again. It broke my heart. But I still stayed I still believed he would realize the error of his ways but nope. We went all of June without talking just out of nowhere. I'm genuinely so tired but I still have hope that he can change am I dumb. I know a lot of you are gonna just assume I'm dumb for staying with him for so long but please I really just need support. We go to the same college and I'm going to have to save face once again when we I inevitably see him in a month when we open I don't know how I'm going to do that. I still love him but he's a stupid man whore, manipulative a user and a cheater nobody likes him. I know he has the capacity for change I've genuinely seen it in him but he just switches and it's suddenly as if he's a completely different person. I'm gonna love him forever I think but I have to do that from a distance because he destroys me I just feel so crappy I wish I never met him

Not really a question more so a rant?
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