Questions: Break Up & Divorce

I fell in love with the girl and we got together about a year and a half or so ago. However we have broken up about 3 months ago. the reason why we broke up was cause i would force myself onto her. I would do so because she denied me sex. I would get pissy and bitchy (bitching about her past (which i will talk about later) trying to guilt trip her into sex) or i would touch her in attempt to turn her on. This was however at the expense of her heath as we always liked it rough and after awhile her vajayjay was injured... in the way that she had meds to take to help ease the pain. if im not wrong she had an ovarian cyst or something. But even after her getting hurt id continue to fore myself onto her every now and then until one day she left.

Back story: I am actually really traditional when it comes to relationships and didn't even kiss a girl until i was with her (at the age of 18). however she lost her virgin to her previous bf who due to the word limit i shant continue. But anws, this affected me as i felt she was tainted. i was really insecure about her past and the time i felt secure felt like nothing else mattered was when we had sex. which was why i got addicted to it after awhile... we started sex a month into our relationship. thus the foundation of our relationship was built mainly around sex.. so when she asked me to stop it was really hard. at times i would act with out thinking. I really regret what i have done cause i really do love every atom that makes her being...

Question: I have not talked to her for about 2 months now and recently started but i can tell that she's pushing me away as she gives me few word replies or she'll say "ttyl" and not talk to me anymore. I spent these 2 months reflecting and finding myself once more and now that i feel that there is progress and i am able to finally accept her past i want to get back with her, start a fresh and show that i love her and not lust for her. but i dont know what to do. any suggestions?