I feel like my life is very sad and lonely to a lot of people. And they’re certainly right, it used to hurt more but I’ve become more content. I see people on social media all the time spending time with family and they do things together, friends and significant others etc. They don’t seem drama filled and everyone gets along so well, I feel like my life has been the opposite. I’m only in my mid twenties and can say that I’m always alone, I’m at the point where I know for a fact that I will never find love. Never been in a long term relationship, I don’t have any friends (online friends only but don’t count). I don’t talk to almost all of my family, I only speak to my parents and brothers. There’s been drama with most people I’ve called friends, workplaces, school life, family etc and I’ve just secluded myself. It’s become more bearable, at the point where
TL;DR:I am bitter and keep people at arms length. I was nicer and friendlier previously, drama happened. I’m to my self and what happens? Drama. I cannot win, people are just complicated and flawed. Am I just super unlucky? Or is this most people who seem to hide it better?
Story of my life. People only want to be friends with me to use me. I'm always the topic of conversation wherever I go even though I'm low key. I don't know what I do to attract attention to me. They talk bad, make fun of me then pretend to be my friends even though I'm nice to them. People always find something wrong about me to keep them from knowing me. Most people that I talk to, I've heard them tell their true friends that they don't consider me as a friend. Some say they feel sorry for me, some, I don't know what their reasons are. The funny thing about it is, they're always the one initiating contact. I completely alienated myself, my mom doesn't like me, she had me to keep my dad but he still didn't want her. Most of my life I was thrown out of the house starting at the age of 12, only to be asked to move back in because she feared judgment from family. I'm an only child so being alone doesn't bother me at all. I don't understand why people hate me so much without even knowing me. Trust me I've asked. Most answers I get are "it's because you're you, you know who you are". I asked them to describe how I am but they never do. they just say the same thing. So i don't know. Some say it's my energy. Maybe I have evil spirits roaming around me that I'm unaware of, I don't know. I'm so nice and trustworthy. I admit, I'm standoffish but it's because I'm shy and also because of my experiences. I know I can't approach girls who look better than me cause apparently friendship is based on looks. I learned the hard way. So I try to be friends with average looking girls like me but I still get the same treatment. As a child I had grown ups compare me to their 5 year old when I was 10. It's like I'm stuck in a competition that I didn't even sign up for. I stopped trying to make friends. I don't talk to my family because they also gossip about me. I once heard my grandmother say to the rest of the family that the only thing I have is intelligence, apart from that I have nothing else. When she saw me she rolled her eyes at me. She once told me that I shouldn't have my last name because I'm nothing like her mother. Her mother wasn't a loser like me and etc. Since that day my little cousins started disrespecting me and she wouldn't say anything to them. The entire family made fun of me so I stopped talking to them. I get attention from guys but some are turned off by the fact that I don't have friends. Others act like life coach and tell me how I should act when making friends but nothing works. Apart from work, I dont go out. I'm always at home watching TV and I love it.
What an unbelievable story! I'm so moved. I'm sure there's nothing wrong with you, it's them! They came after you for unknown reason.