So we started to know each other at the end of October, then he started to have a huge crush on me. The following month, he came to me every night while I'm studying to talk with me, until very late night (my friends are shocked as well because he never does this with anyone). Apparently we have the same interests and will pursue the same course, and there was a spark of compatibility between us. Basically, we never grow tired of talking with each other, and we had great chemistry, he opened up to me very much, unlike to even his friends. He kept surprising me with his intelligence, and passion which is the same as mine.
It was at this point where I.. began to have feelings for him. Because of how he understands me so much, and I understand him. He even told me that "It's nice to have somebody that understand you". "We're the only one that understand each other".
Then one night while we were talking alone, he kissed my head, hugged me while silently listening to our favorite music, and then he lifted me and kissed me passionately. It was for 2 nights, (no sex), he said to me about taking me out to dates, about our potential relationship, then suddenly he stopped coming. When I asked why,
He said he's not ready for serious relationship and he doesn't want to hurt me anymore. He said that the problem was him, not me. He said that everything there was temporary. "I thought there was something but there wasn't".
Now that 2 months have passes, I have regarded him as a friend (but we haven't talked much ever since, just eye contacts and glances), but I notice that whenever I talk with other guys, he would just stare at us. And he would stare at me at times. And when he walked passed by me, I can feel the tension from him, I don't know what is it but he seems nervous around me.
He was drunk with his friends, and he said "I am not ready for serious relationship" when his friend wanted to arrange him with another girl from the same social group. We're only 19
