I feel really sad. I am experiencing many feelings of sadness, anger & confusion. My mother is unwell. She always complains stomach pains & sharp chest pains. She works 7 days a week, one full time job (thankfully from home for the last 6 months), and two night time shifts during the weekend.
We can barely make ends meet & the only way for us (family of 3) to get food on the table is by her working this many hours, whilst she repays her debts. I am a postgraduate student & I have abnormal amounts of tuition money to pay, so unfortunately I can't contribute much at home. My younger brother is young, so he can't help financially.
My father left. He just left the family to pursue a new job abroad. He has never been back in the last 4 years. He was the breadwinner. When he left, he left a lot of debt. Nearly £50,000 worth of debt. Where it came from, I dont know. He didn't live luxurious, barely bought clothes for himself & he seemed reserved with his finances when he was here. So we were shocked when the debt collectors letters started coming through.
Those factors contribute to my sadness.
Back to my mum. She thinks she's going to die. She keeps mentioning it and has been for over 3 months now. She has been mentioning how stressed she is and I know. I don't know how to help so I tend to put it at the back of my mind. I am so stressed with university, things happening at home really won't help my mental health. Anyways, she went to the doctor the other day, who gave her 3 injections. she came back and said she was going back for an operation. She left to go to hospital today and came back with more pills and said the doctor is trying to book her in for an operation. Then she begun talking about taking out life insurance. She said she wants my brother and I to have some funds if she dies. Then she mentioned that because she HAS cancer... I said "you HAD cancer". Her: "yeah but it never really goes away".
I think she's hiding something from me.
That's why I feel sad.
We can barely make ends meet & the only way for us (family of 3) to get food on the table is by her working this many hours, whilst she repays her debts. I am a postgraduate student & I have abnormal amounts of tuition money to pay, so unfortunately I can't contribute much at home. My younger brother is young, so he can't help financially.
My father left. He just left the family to pursue a new job abroad. He has never been back in the last 4 years. He was the breadwinner. When he left, he left a lot of debt. Nearly £50,000 worth of debt. Where it came from, I dont know. He didn't live luxurious, barely bought clothes for himself & he seemed reserved with his finances when he was here. So we were shocked when the debt collectors letters started coming through.
Those factors contribute to my sadness.
Back to my mum. She thinks she's going to die. She keeps mentioning it and has been for over 3 months now. She has been mentioning how stressed she is and I know. I don't know how to help so I tend to put it at the back of my mind. I am so stressed with university, things happening at home really won't help my mental health. Anyways, she went to the doctor the other day, who gave her 3 injections. she came back and said she was going back for an operation. She left to go to hospital today and came back with more pills and said the doctor is trying to book her in for an operation. Then she begun talking about taking out life insurance. She said she wants my brother and I to have some funds if she dies. Then she mentioned that because she HAS cancer... I said "you HAD cancer". Her: "yeah but it never really goes away".
I think she's hiding something from me.
That's why I feel sad.
