How to cope with childhood abuse?

[Anonymous]

My parents used to beat me badly in my childhood. I was born a little sick and they hated that. I had to tolerate a lot of hateful comments from parents, and relatives because of that.
Even though I was an overall well-behaved kid and already excellent in my studies still I got beaten up almost every day. Cane, glass rod, hot spatula, belt everything. They had marital problems and stress in jobs and they used to release it all at me. I used to get bruises all over my body. At one point wised to die as cried so much for the help, and was suicidal. Beg to god for death.
I have one brother and he almost never had to face any of it. Even though I was so much hardworking and smart and talented.
I still struggle with all that mentally. Bad dreams, nightmares. People generally think I had the best childhood as I am witty, funny, and smart now.

[Mynameisbobby]

I understand exactly what you are going through. After my father died it was my mother and sister that's 5 years older than me. She would beat me everyday for no reason and my mother let her do anything she wanted to me. I was 12 she was 18. She would come in my room and accuse me of stealing her stuff from her room which I never went into (why go somewhere that you know you will get beat up?) She would push me on the floor then step on my belly and laugh that I couldn't breathe. My last day in that house her and my cousin were beating me they were kicking me somehow I managed to get up get to my window and jumped out it was a first floor. They both grabbed my shirt and ripped it off me I ran a couple miles too my uncles house it was March and cold for no shirt. My uncle adopted me when I was 13 he's the best thing that happened to me!! I like you still have nightmares when I was 13 my uncle would stay up with me until I fell asleep again. I've been in counseling for years and it has helped me so much. I don't blame myself for what they did to me anymore but I'm still dealing with it and it sucks!! I know what you are going through and I'm sorry you went through it. I have horrible anxiety from it. I know for me I was always so ashamed that a girl could do that to me people would say things like "you let your sister beat you up "? I was a lot smaller than she was and couldn't fight back. I really wish you the best! Again sorry you had to go through that.

[Flower7]

Sorry to hear about the bad things you went through. Memories that intense can most likely only be helped with therapy.

[Mynameisbobby]

I'm still in therapy and it's helped me a lot

[jennifer_bloom]

I pray and serve the world when I want healing from God. It works better then all other methods that I’ve tried.

[In_Trance]

get therapy