I have missed out on my whole teenage years. I have sat at home, I have never been allowed out, whatever my siblings needed or wanted, I was at their first aid (even with babysitting for them), but they still won't let me live a life. I got my hair bleached once when I was a teenager, and my dad paid for it. That was the first time I had actually asked for something in years, and she went furious. She said it wasn't fair, so my dad never let me do my hair again. Over the years I have only ever gone out with friend six times. That was out of five years, and three of the times being for school business (studying in a library). On my 18th birthday, my sister specifically chose my birthday to have her son's baptism, and she organized everything for herself. I didn't get to go out and drink, nothing. I was only allowed three friends to come. Now is finally formal and I have been so excited. My friend and I are going to get hair done, makeup done and stay in a hotel for the night. However, she was upset about that, told my dad and now I'm not allowed to stay in a hotel. It has ruined all the fun for me. It was just meant to be a girl's night for myself and my friend in the hotel. We were going to watch movies, order food and just enjoy the view. Now I don't even want to go formal.
Why does she do this to me? I also just got my first job and have only been working for less than three months, but she wants me to put money into her place so she can 'buy more" for the rest of the siblings. But I don't even want a place with her. Why the hell do I want to put money with them? She wasn't paying for a place at 18, and neither was the rest of my siblings, why is it my job?
I have seriously been so understanding and compassionate about how she hasn't gotten more from our parents. I have done everything in my power to help her to make up for it. But at the end of the day, it's not my fault, and I'm tired of having my fun take away from me because "they couldn't do it".
