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Am I a traitor because I miss my uncles and their family and I get sad sometimes because we’ve all been cut off from each other?

I was always shy around my uncles but I feel sad because I did grow up with them and they all attended my graduation. My parents won’t tell me everything that they did but I know that they disrespected my parents a lot one of my uncles called my mom a bitch and spread rumors about her and they also used to make fun of my dad’s truck. Despite this I feel sad that I don’t have a family anymore I recently found out that my uncle’s wife blocked me and I was just like why me? I have nothing to do with this. That lady was always nice to me that made me sad they were my childhood. Is it wrong that I wish that I could drive to their houses and see them again? I know that they hurt my parents but I have nothing to do with that and I feel sad that I don’t have a family no cousins no nothing. I don’t know why ever since my uncle’s wife blocked me I’ve just been feeling bad about the family problems.

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I blocked everyone except that lady about 6 months ago because I felt like I was a traitor for having my other uncle and aunt on social media and she blocked me
Am I a traitor because I miss my uncles and their family and I get sad sometimes because we’ve all been cut off from each other?
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