My friend has admitted that at one point during our teenage years she used to try to put me down because of jealousy only to realize how wrong she was because she knows I have been nothing but a good friend to her. Even in our ups and downs I have always loved her like a sister. I have forgiven her more than once for doing things that I would think unforgivable like talking about me behind my back and trying to tear me down on purpose but despite all the bad there was a lot of good. She was always there for me, we have some of our best memories together and I grew up feeling like I didn't need friends I always shirked off invitations to hangout with other people I never cared to fit in or socialize with people so I didn't have that attachment issues where I felt like I just needed friends. I just genuinely love my friend as if she were my sister. But I have been seeing more signs that the things I forgave her for she would do again. I caught her talking trash about me with her boyfriend when she thought the phone hung up. I told her about herself and told her don't contact me anymore. I'm still not sure if I want it to last forever. Even Now after the things she does I can't picture my life without her. She isn't a total bitch she seems so sweet and then when she does harsh things it's blindsiding. I'm not a super forgiving person but a part of me has a soft spot for my friend because I felt like she was better than those couple mistakes. But we're mid twenties now and after 12 years of friendship I worry that if she hasn't changed by now she never will. And it's sinking in that she just might not be a real friend
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How do you deal with a jealous friend who you still love?
