How old were you when you really felt like the real pain of loss?

There have been relatives I've known who have died, but generally we had not seen them in quite a few years at that point, so it was sad of course, but I basically got back to "normal" pretty quickly. There's not a day that goes by where I don't think of my grandmother frequently for the past 6+ months. Things will never really be OK again. I feel like something is broken that can never be repaired. I don't know how I am supposed to live with this pain for the rest of my life.. knowing I'll only know even more sorrow one day.

How old were you when you really felt like the real pain of loss?
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