I don't know, I feel like I’ve been ‘ready’ since coming to college. I didn’t really care that I was a virgin last year when I got here, I honestly don’t think I was mentally prepared to even consider it cuz I never really liked someone enough. Now that I have, I’m kinda sad because I never like guys that it can work out with. When I do, it’s after months of getting to know them and then it’s too late. My friend said he thinks I’m asexual, but I honestly think I’m more aromantic. I know I have a sex drive, but I think I just expected to find someone perfect and be his girlfriend then my virginity will go naturally. Now I’m in a position where; I’m VEry single, I don’t really like any guys that can like me back, dating apps don’t work for me because I can’t really grow feelings for a picture, and I can' really have sex with someone I don’t care about because unfortunately it’s my first time and I need someone I trust because of everything that can go wrong (and right lol).
I don’t know. Most guys in my life are just friends, and I’m not attracted to them. I don’t flirt either, so even in lectures or socials I don’t flirt with hot guys. the only time I flirt is out drunk and drunk guys just want to hook up and make out on the dance floor which honestly isn’t the type of guy I want. I don't know I just wish I wasn’t so unlucky when it came to feelings, it comes so rarely for me and the times it has I was heartbroken. But I don’t want to be a virgin anymore, I just wish I could have sex with who I want without thinking about getting my virginity out of the way first. I don’t think it’s special anymore, it’s nothing but a weight.
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