Help I'm scared I hurt this guy's feelings?

[Anonymous]

Okay so, I was at the store with my mom and my sister. I had a terrible day, I felt like the ugliest girl in the world and I legit cried at the store. (I tried to hide it, I don't know if anyone noticed) But I felt so ugly compared to my sister. The way men looked at her when they saw her, the way people were nice to her, complimented her, just because she's pretty made my self esteem drop because that's something I've always wanted but I knew I will never get.

Anyways, enough about that. This guy who worked there, probably a few years older than me. (I'm guessing he was 17-20) I walked past him multiple times. He was putting items in the shelf, and since you know, I felt ugly and I was crying, AND I avoid guys I am attracted to (he was pretty). I also feel too ugly for a guy to look me in the face, I felt like I was dirty, disgusting and unworthy of him seeing me. I made eye contact and went the other way immediately speeding my walking. It was obvious that I was avoiding him. If I saw him coming my eyes widened in fear and I ran the other way, and HE could see it. And I did this about 5 times with him, I could see on his face that he looked hurt. Now I'm scared he thought I avoided him because I found him creepy, ugly or something like that when it's not the case at all. I know that a lot of guys get hurt when girls avoid them, or think that the girls are unattracted to them. That's not the case with me, I'm just really awkward and insecure. AND I was crying. I'm so scared I damaged this man's self esteem. He looked so sad oh my gosh.

Did I hurt his feelings? How bad is it?

[Anonymous]

If you seen it on his face, then he probably was and assumed it was personal (as you would if he did it to you). But guys (in general) will tend to "get over" things like that quicker than women. It might hurt in the moment, but we'll just move on. If you see him again though, and can talk to him, you can just let him know that it wasn't personal and you were just having a bad day.

[Asker]

I really hope he does move on, I will pray for him. I really don't want him to have low self esteem because of me.

[Staximus]

You need to relax and stop overthinking everything. You being sad is probably what made him sad. Are you even really that ugly compared to your sister? Maybe it's the way you interact with people. Stop living inside your head and be present in the moment and interact with people like a normal friendly person.

[Asker]

But he doesn't know me, why would he about what I'm feeling? And yes I am, I truly am.

[Asker]

He care about*

[Staximus]

You have a terrible opinion of yourself and you need to fix that

[Ruenella_]

You destroyed them.

[Asker]

I can't believe I would do such a terrible thing, it wasn't on purpose but I definitely could have been less selfish and not running away from him.
What makes it worse is that I can't even apologize to him because it was at a store in a different city from where I live. I don't know where it is or who he is. What if I damaged his self esteem for years or even a life time?

[Ruenella_]

Poor guy...