My boyfriend & I have been together for 5 years next year. I keep hinting I wamt to go away but I don't think it will happen. He said he proposed about a year and a half into our relationship due to a cheating thing. It is more complicated than that but I'll leave it there anyways he claimed we are engaged but has made no plans for a wedding 3 years later?
I know there was pandemic but we have made no actual plans so I don't class it as an engagement. I think it was more of a commitment ring then anything else. I've said this but he doesn't listen. I've looked at rings for years. His sister got married in January & I didn't want to go to the wedding because I felt sad.
He keeps on saying I have to be better (from my eating disorder) to announce an engagement as his family want photos. Then he says he wants me better so I don't have a melt down at the wedding. What happens if I don't get better?
Reading back on this post, it seems childish. He never slept with anyone or met up with anyone as far as I know but he used to talk, flirt & send them dick pics. Your probably why I am still with him. I love him and I know I will never get anyone else. I am coverd in stretch marks for contast weight loss & gain. He liked me when I was skinner for example. Or my legs can do with toning. My boobs are too big. Or you used to have nice curves on you π€¦ββοΈ
You see, until I get better he won't marry me. I don't want him running off with someone younger & prettier than me. I just want to be happy. So what do I do from here? Because I am fed up like you, but I feel like I can't live without him. I feel like I will never be smart, beautiful or just enough for him.
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