I've had this as a repressed memory for so long but I'm finally seeing it as the route to why I struggle to trust men. Especially when they are in a superior position with me. I don't go out for drinks with male co workers, I don't like being in rooms alone with men, I push men away instantly if I feel they are getting to friendly with me and become a total bitch.
I finally had a mental breakdown at my works Christmas party which I was really nervous about but my friends really pushed me into going with them. One of my male co workers was hitting on me a lot and maybe I over reacted a little. I could have just shut it down but instead I went fall crazy bitch on him. I went back into my hotel room and cried my eyes out.
My friend followed me to my room to make sure I was okay and we really talked it out together. I told her why I get so freaked out by men showing me attention and she told me I needed to report it instantly but I feel it's to late and I won't be believed but Im also scared there could be other victims out there too because I didn't do anything.
When I was 14 I went on a camping trip away with my school. There was a younger male teacher would really tried to bond with me on the trip as I was the shy girl. I didn't feel comfortable with it but I went along with it because I didn't want to come off problematic.
He would come into my tent at night "to check on me" but one night he came into my tent really late. And just laid there next to me talking. He was saying stuff like " you know I think your growing into a beautiful young woman" and would be really creepy and touching me places I didn't feel comfortable with. I was so scared I didn't say anything and blanked out. over time the abuse get worse. I remember one time him touching my butt behind a counter top whilst talking to others and I was just still and didn't say anything.
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Where the hell is this bastard, I’m gonna kill him
You’re a strong woman now, No one can take advantage of you.
I now its hard to forget the past but it’s the only route to healing.
That’s a terrible thing for anyone to go through. I don’t know your local laws. I would reach out to someone to talk with, they would be able to give you better guidance.
He never actually raped me or anything like that so i don't know how serious the police would take it. It was more trying to manipulate me into thinking we had a relationship and that I was his property.
He'd touch me on the butt and play with my hair a lot and give me little kisses. a lot of the time I'd pretend to be sleeping just so he'd leave me alone and wouldn't go further with the touching
Good. At the least talking to someone might help you heal.
Yes, he deserves to be reported.