Am I letting depression win?

[Glitter_TE_ART]

I've been battling depression for at least 7 years and have been hospitalized for it (and an eating disorder) along with going to therapy and taking antipsychotics. I thought things were beginning to get better in that I'm eating (fairly) clean and tried to smile more often. However, I've been sleeping all the time. Like, 16+ hours a day every day of the week. I just don't have energy to get ready and go out to see people. I don't have the energy to get out of the house unless it's for a doctors appointment. I get unexplainably angry and irritated by the littlest things my parents do or say. I take my pills every night and do smoke weed which could be an issue but it's medical for pain. Am I letting my depression win? I'm just always tired and never want to do anything..

[SuperNurse42]

Depression is a necessary part of life, and at your low points you may feel like it is winning. Just remember, it always makes you stronger. It's the hardest times that make you grow into the strongest version of yourself.

I suggest you find a passion in your life, and focus the little energy that you might still have toward it.

[anonymousxyz]

Unfortunately I think you are :(

[anonymousxyz]

You need to find your thing if you know what I mean. Something that you're really passionate about and stick to it. It could be exercising, art, finding an instrument to play. Whatever it is, you have to have passion. Sometimes people have passion already or sometimes they turn external emotions into passion. For example, a few years back I wanted to loose some weight because there was this girl that I really liked but I didn't feel good enough for her. So thinking about her sort of provided me with that motivation. Maybe there's someone that you love in your life if so, do it for them. Love is a powerful emotion and it will give you the motivation and dedication that you need to do anything. I also get that you're smokin weed to reduce pain from depression which is alright but it is affecting your motivation to do stuff in your life so I suggest you stop. No pain, no gain. So I encourage you to find that thing and the motivation to do it and you will loose your depression.

[Glitter_TE_ART]

It's medical for physical pain. I have chronic migraines and get nauseous frequently. My "love" life is barely existing. I used to love art and I've been trying to get back into it but I just get tired and wind up going to sleep.

[anonymousxyz]

A lot of famous artists have painted/drawn their emotions so go ahead and do that. It could help you to better express yourself if you're not already. that still goes back to the motivation part. Si I ask you is there anything or anyone (family included) that you truly love and would do anything for?

[Anonymous]

I would never say that your depression is winning, but from your post it does seem that at that point in time your depression had spiraled out of control. Since the time that you have shared this question, have you seen your medical doctor and/or mental health professional?

[The_highlander]

Did you change meds? Which anti depressant do you take? I had a similar problem but I changed and it was better so might consider that.

[Glitter_TE_ART]

No new meds for around 5 months. I'm on 150mg of Zoloft and 150mg Wellbuturin.

[The_highlander]

Are you exercising regularly? that can help the efficacy.

[Glitter_TE_ART]

I always plan to try but I just don't have the energy.

[The_highlander]

But no, don't let it win. Talk to your doctor increase your dosage, a different med might help

[Anonymous]

I have been hospitalized plenty of times growing up, it is not fun. After years of undergoing intense therapy for anxiety and depression, I have noticed a major improvement in myself.

But now, I have been worrying about the fact I have never had a girlfriend and I am still a virgin.

[McC0530]

I can cure your depression.

[McC0530]

Also, stop smoking pot, seriously. That shit had me in the pits after it became a habit. Weed is ok for some people, others don't tolerate it as well.