What to do with my depression?

[Almageste]

Hello,
I have been depressed for the past year. Haven't gone to school since September ; my scholar year is obviously fucked up.

I haven't see my psychologist in more or less a month and a half. I dropped the medication too. In all honestly, there is no real reason.
I just... didn't want to go any longer.

Reasons of my depression?
Who knows? I woke up heavily depressed in July, but I somewhat was in this state since May 2014, not being able to get out of my bed, eating really badly, you can guess the rest.

As of today, I'm still depressed after months of therapy and medication ; when my psychologist slightly let me understand that I was going to have even more drugs I couldn't take it anymore.
I can't seem to talk properly with my parents, invasive as they are, but the paradox is that I actually need their attention too... I need to be reassured permanently because of all of my lack of self confidence, always doubting, always criticizing everyone and everything. Took some tests too, it appears I'm what they call "HP" (high potential IQ>130, mine's 137), and apparently it caused my social problems when I was younger, when I " wasn't able to put myself at their level". Between "" because it just seems so messed up...

So, conclusion, what the hell am I supposed to do, unable to get out of my bed?
Think about positive thinfsw the depression gave me? Yeah I learned English and, and, nothing?

I read myself, I look like a crybaby it's actually funny.

[energizerbunny]

Hey,
Let me tell you a bit about myself. I have a rare neurological disorder that has no treatment/ cure. It affects my heart- it stops no joke. It affects my digestive tract, and so much more. 17.. I'm 23 now. I take 27 pills a day to try and help with the pain, anxiety, depression, and heart issues.

Yes, dear pills sucks, and I under stand. But when your doctor tells you that you need something, ask questions. Don't just sit there and let them and the pharmaceutical industry shove pills down your throat.
Asking questions and learning about your diagnosis for credible sites or books helps you and your loved ones understand what you are dealing with. I would know I've done this, it really works.
So first thing is first, get back on your meds.
Yes they suck, but believe me.. They help.
Second thing, change up your diet. Eat a lot of colors, fruits , veggie, look for food that is sweet such as pineapple, or other veggies.
It may sound odd, but what you put into your body has a GIANT impact on not only your mood, but the rest of your body.
I'm not saying go all G-MO free, but try a fee things at a time. If you have a blender get on the web and find shakes. (Stay health tho) there atr truly a lot of foods out there that will help you beat those not so healthy cravings. If you can buy a cleanse. Get rid of those toxins, they can hurt you in more ways then you know.
From what I understand you are very knowledgeable. So you should know why I'm saying all this. There is a reason for adding a new pill or taking one away. But when you take them for a while and then you just up and stop, your body is going to react. I hope you start too feel better. And try taking some vitamin's. I know first hand some meds can down play important vitamins your body needs to function properly. Talk to your doctor about it. Feel free to message if you have any Q's. Good luck!
And don't forget to smile, things will be fine.

[Almageste]

Hello,
First of all, I deeply thank you for your long answer. Writing such a concerned answer to my question, you must be a nice person, and I mean it.

I don't know about the pills, but I guess I'll start eating healthier.
About those ones, I actually did inform myself and it is because of that that I do not want to take pills any longer : it's artificial, you don't get better by yourself, it's something the pill did. On the other hand, depressed as I am, is it really the right time to be picky about how to get better? Don't know...

In any case, I won't forget to smile too..

Thanks, really.

[energizerbunny]

You are most defiantly welcome. And thank you for the MHO. Yes, you are right I am a very nice loving and caring person. But sometimes that is my downfall, I get played a lot just for sympathy. While it hurts, I forgive everyone. No one is perfect, that is why we are human.
I see why you don't want to take the prescribed RX (s). They are no way natural coming from a lab.
If you prefer a more natural mood to help sort out or even out your serotonin, try herbal remedies. Its crazy how much the pharmaceutical industry pockets yearly. For $8 depending on where you are you van pick of a bottle of lavender spray.(helps you sleep) fresh sage and burn it. Look up Aromatherapy. Hell even Herbal teas work ( just need a bit of honey to sweeten).

[SamA_nold]

I can relate man. Depression sucks. A lot of people say the medication helps, but honestly for most it does nothing. You need to force yourself to get out and take walks in nature, or read, something you can do to escape that gives you time to thing. You need to get back in school though, push through the pain. Maybe ask to be assigned in a mental recovery room in a hospital. That helps a lot of people more than anything else. Especially for me. Find the cause of this though, where you think it started and other details. That can help you recover. I know you've probably heard a lot of this before, but exercise, find a hobby, something that may not be fun but that keeps you busy. Learn card games. That helps a lot, more than people understand. Try to interact with your parents, not by talking at first, but by sitting on the couch and watching TV or something.

There are a lot of people out there who care man. Don't give up hope. You sound like a great guy, with a lot of luck for in the future. You're smart, and you could easily get into a great college. Don't let this overrun you though, and know you have people you can talk to.

[Kenzy-Yinn]

Take the mediation that is the best for you. Some doctors tend to give you the wrong dose or even the wrong medicine...
And don't just think of positive things, but do things too. You need to do something to feel accomplished

[Babyapple]

I'd start with adjusting your medication. Either brand or dosage isn't right. Once you're better you can start to slowly phase it out if you want to, but I think at this stage you need the right meds. Good luck x