I don't know what to do, I don't want to live anymore?

[Anonymous]

I feel so stupid for feeling this way
I would never commit suicide, so no worries there
but everything in my life has lost its meaning
i just got out of the best relationship I've ever had, and only a month ago I was the happiest I have ever been

now, I have been through break ups before, and I know that everything seems pointless after loosing something so close to one

but I think I might need some serious help right here.
when I was younger I used to cut myself.. I've been "clean" for 4 years, but now I've done it again..
when I cut I get completely out Of my head like I'm on drugs or something, because afterwards I start crying and thinking why the Hell am I this stupid.

have any Of you experienced something like this?
should I go to the emergency room or something?

[Cookies_AndMilk]

You're experiencing depression sweetie but even more damaging is that fact that you've wrapped up your value in another human being. You have failed to recognize how special, and wonderful, and beautiful, and important you are. No, you aren't stupid but what you're doing is. Because you have failed to love yourself when you found someone that did it meant everything to you, this is very unhealthy. People are not perfect, people will let you down and make cry, people will hurt you and that's okay. It's okay because pain is apart of life, but it is our job to keep living after the pain. There isn't enough words in the world that can change what you're feeling, it all has to start with you. You need to change your thinking, you need to love YOU. I think you need to vent, in order to get your feelings out there. It's important you understand what and why you're feeling this way. Therapy could be a great source or even a friend. Don't be embarrassed or ashamed of how you feel. If you're scared to talk to someone personally you could take to me. I'd be more than happy to message you back and forth and hear everything you have to say, you just need to let it all out. Cry, or eat some cake, but don't hurt yourself. My inbox is always open for you if you need anything, and please remember you are so very special to this world whether you realize it or not.

[Asker]

I downrated this by mistake :(
I was Reading this on my Iphone and accidentally pressed it :(
But thank you so much!
This made me cry :/
You are so right, everything you wrote is true

[Cookies_AndMilk]

Don't worry about the down vote just take care of yourself. Remember what I said, if you need to talk I'm here for you. <3

[NatashaJ]

If it was meant to be you guys would had stay together it was faith you two wouldn't last. Don't beat yourself up for that! listen there so many guys out there you found someone else and he can't be so perfect. You must not want to admit how he really was because your still in love. When you fall out of love you will see what was wrong with your relationship.

[ArrowheadSW]

If you have a regular doctor that you see, make an appointment right away. If you don't have a physician, ask a friend who he/she would recommend. You've made a good first step by asking on here, but please do follow up and seek professional counseling. Your physician can prescribe an antidepressant or refer you to a therapist, depending. Wishing you luck!

[MiguelSilva]

Get to a pshycoligist. Girl , you're fine , trust me , you're just depressed. It happens , you'll get over it , just keep eating chocolat , and try to get around your friends more trust me , it will work.

[CrayolaCupcake]

I second @Cookies_AndMilk I would see someone you trust about this. It's clear you're in a bad place and you need some help.

[OpenWine]

Are you able to tell the real problem you have? Cause cutting is just a way to "hide" what really bothers you.

[AngryHorny]

You should go to your doctor, not the emergency room.

[Anonymous]

you should see a therapist.

[Anonymous]

I'll give you some rebound sex if you want