Shall I propose to her again?

[invalid1]

There is this friend who is around my age, not so much older than me.

We've been intimate before, but I did not consider her as a "significant other" because I thought my life will be full of opportunities with the opposite sex.

But as time passed I realized I was so wrong. And I feel a little regret and I feel ego, not just because I accepted to go back with her back to the friend zone when she told me she doesn't feel I am serious. but also because last year I proposed to her and she had neutral reaction whereby she didn't reject me, or maybe she wanted to test my seriousness.

I want to love her, I accept everything about her and I think she can do the same to me.

Should I propose to her again?

[Brainsbeforebeauty]

"I want to love her" isn't the same as I love her and don't want to spend my life without her... Date her if she's willing to date, enter a relationship, but maybe hold off proposing or getting married till you're more sure about your feelings. You can state that you are ready to settle down with someone which let's her know marriage is a goal and find out if she's also ready to settle down with someone...

[Sweetener_]

Wait, you want to make her your wife?

[invalid1]

Initially that's the goal.

[Aassem]

You mean eventually xD

[invalid1]

😂 Yep 🤦‍♂️

[Sweetener_]

I would suggest you do a deep self examination, because you don't seem too sure about this. I see it like this, you noticed that you don't have much luck with girls so you decided to stick with her. It's as If you're using her as a rebound, that's the way I see it, correct me if I'm wrong.

So I would suggest you think deep about this before proposing. Remeber this is someone you might stay with for the rest of your life.
And also communicate with her about your feelings ❤

[invalid1]

You have put it quite precisely, except that deep inside me I feel totally convinced that to keep putting her aside for incoming possibilities is stupidity and waste of time.

[Sweetener_]

If you keep putting her aside for incoming possibilities then you don't really want her... you want to use her because you feel lonely.

Honestly look for someone who's compatible with you, I feel like if you propose to her you might just end up neglecting her and breaking her heart or worse, cheating on her simply because deep down she's not the one you really desired. So please choose wisely ❤

[invalid1]

I understand.
Thank you, this was extremely helpful. But I would never do that to her.

I've come to the realization that the one I really desire is more of fiction and irrational perfectionism.
We're both approaching our third decade lol

[Sweetener_]

Thank you for mho, glad I could help 🕊💛

[AmandaYVR]

Doesn't sound like a second proposal is the missing factor here.
You both need to have a serious conversation about exactly where both your heads are at right now. Asking her again may not change anything. If you really want her now, it's your job to express that to her, in detail, with why.

[Aassem]

Don't, cuz you don't seem sure about her.