I'm a 20 year old girl and I've never felt like daddy's little princess, but more like his little boy even though I've always loved hyperfemininity and embody it fully today as an adult. So my dad did things like not letting me play with barbie because he thought it set a bad example, and he wouldn't let me wear nail polish, wear sparkly dresses, or those little kids plastic princess highheels every other girl would get from the dollar store. He had this obsession with me being 'different,' from the others, so much that despite being severely bullied for being hairy throughout school, he didn't let me get it removed, because apparently it makes me tougher and stronger. He was scarily strict about me talking to boys. Also, whenever we go out to eat, he wasn't very generous as he always made me feel uncomfortable whenever i ordered anything large (he makes 6 figures by the way).
He has an obsession with humbling me, so much that it led me to get into an emotionally abusive relationship at 17 to a man 8 years older than me. I can see now that me being in such a toxic relationship was because of his obsession with being tough, sucking it up, soldiering on etc. This ex never paid for anything, guilt tripped me about not giving him money etc. I used to have such a hard time accepting things from men. I felt I always needed to prove myself/be validated by men. Now I am proud of being high maintenance and require any man that comes into my life to spoil me, like my current boyfriend does. My dad's hatred of anything hyperfeminine (which is what I embody now and I can tell he doesn't like it) caused me to hate stereotypically feminine women for years, and he encouraged this. Now he gets so triggered whenever I say someday I would like to be a housewife. I don't even bring it up because I'm afraid he'll start yelling at me or at the very least belittle me.
He has an obsession with humbling me, so much that it led me to get into an emotionally abusive relationship at 17 to a man 8 years older than me. I can see now that me being in such a toxic relationship was because of his obsession with being tough, sucking it up, soldiering on etc. This ex never paid for anything, guilt tripped me about not giving him money etc. I used to have such a hard time accepting things from men. I felt I always needed to prove myself/be validated by men. Now I am proud of being high maintenance and require any man that comes into my life to spoil me, like my current boyfriend does. My dad's hatred of anything hyperfeminine (which is what I embody now and I can tell he doesn't like it) caused me to hate stereotypically feminine women for years, and he encouraged this. Now he gets so triggered whenever I say someday I would like to be a housewife. I don't even bring it up because I'm afraid he'll start yelling at me or at the very least belittle me.
