So im a boy and 15 and gay, I have pretended to be "tough and masculine" all my life, Inside im soft and extremly girly (if i was not constantly pressured to be manly i would probably wear a skirt and be my self. But at school i litteraly have to force myself to not act girly and to pretend to be masculine and tough, All i want is tall hunky manly guy to sweep me off my feet and make me his, I want to snuggle in his broad chest and be his femboy, BUT another issue is im tall and ugly and skinny i also look very masculine somehow, So no top would ever want me. I feel like i will be alone for the rest of my life, Pretending to be a person im not.
What do I do about this im sad depressed and lonely?
