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Toxic friendship?

I have a guy best friend for 5 years now. Our friendship is full of arguments, we often quarrel about the stupidest things and he gets mad about something completely irrelevant (like me getting angry at his roommate) and he ends up blocking me on social medias bcs he doesn’t want to talk to me. Sometimes it takes him days to unblock me and he always says that the more I try to reach him, the more he’ll avoid me. I know I’m annoying, but I know he sometimes does things just so that I feel bad. I lost my trust in him 2 years ago bcs he said a massive lie to me about which I found out later from a girl. I know our friendship is toxic, but I don’t know how to let him go bcs we’re also friends with benefits and I want to lose my virginity to him, so that when I have a boyfriend, I won’t have to deal with that. I don't know how to use him just for that without caring about him and keeping him as a friend bcs I don’t think he sees me as his best friend even though he says that. Im 18 by the way
Toxic friendship?
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