I’m sorry if this is a mess but I’m everywhere rn.
We’re both 22. I’ve known him for 5 years total. We dated in high school and back then I had super strong feelings for him but I chalked it up to being young and naive. We had an emotional break up due to me graduating but he promised to stay in contact because he didn’t want to loose me (which we did).
We dated other people and I realized I still have STRONG feelings for him, so 4 years later I openly told him I still liked him but I wanted to know if I we ever had a shot again so I could close that chapter if need be. I wasn’t looking to date though and didn’t want to force that expectation on him. He said he’s open to trying again in the future but he’s been going through so much he wasn’t ready himself either.
After that we’ve hung out a few times, & I could feel a shift. He lives 3 hours away so he would drive down and visit and he was such a gentleman. We started FaceTiming regularly, and even tho his schedule is busy he still tries to make time and told me to call him anyways because he has free moments. We’ve had sex too which I don’t think helps either but I feel like my emotions have grown so strongly.
He admitted to me out the blue that he loves me last month. He said what we have is different & was built knowing me for years. He knows what love is and he knows that he loves me etc. I said the same back because I do love him, truly. But I hate how our relationship is so up in the air but he’s a busy dude and I don’t wanna bother him about how I feel (even tho he said to ask/talk to him about anything)
I really want a future with him, I wanna show him a love he’s never received before but I don’t even know if I’m ready. I feel dumb, I can’t control my emotions but I don’t know if I should express how deeply I feel for him. I don’t wanna scare him off. Some guys don’t handle that stuff well. I’ve never been so sure I wanted to be with someone. Even if there’s distance. I don't know what to do
