What do you do if everyone hates you and you are truly alone in this world?

[Anonymous]

I've never had any friends, and I've tried to make friends without any luck. What relationships I have had have either resulted in the guy raping me, physically assaulting me, or emotionally abusing me. In my last relationship, I spent over 7 years being involved with him, and only after we got married and I fell pregnant did he say I was toxic and abusive, and he wants nothing to do with me or the baby I am pregnant with. 7 months into the pregnancy, he accused me of having baby-trapped him before telling me how he never consented to having a family with me. I honestly never baby-trapped him. I have medical records showing my ovaries are messed up and how the doctor diagnosed me as being infertile, so the pregnancy came as a complete and utter shock and surprise to me. Things with my family aren't any better. I have one sister in particular who tries to control me, and if I even dare try to fight back and stand up for myself, it results in arguments and what feels like everyone ganging up on me.

When I go to the hospital for my appointments, I feel like in some ways I am being neglected as the hospital failed to disclose to me that I am at risk of developing preeclampsia, which can be deadly. They also keep giving me a hard time, telling me I need support when I go into labor and when I go home, and each and every time I have almost turned into Karen on them because I have repeatedly told them I don't have any friends, baby dad dumped me, and my family are not people I want around me. It's so bad that it makes me not want to go back to the hospital or attend anymore appointments.

I do have mental health issues and triggers, and unfortunately I have lashed out many times and I have said and done some things that we're wrong. Some things I have said and done I know are unforgivable, I hate myself and I want to get better, other times I just Want to disappear.

[NotTacocaT6969]

The very first thing is that you have to be willing to change the part of you that is driving people away from you.


Words make it sound easy, but it’s not.


Do you think you are capable of completely altering your own way of thinking forever?

[Asker]

At work I have definitely changed my way of thinking to be a bit more positive and even encouraging in the sense I know there have been people who have struggled with some of the work they are doing and I give them phrase and advice to keep them from not giving up, some have even come to me and opened up about some personal things going on with their lives
it's when anyone dares gets close to me and i get into a relationship things take a turn for the worse and I turn into an evil person. For example if I know they are lying to me and I can prove it regardless of how small or big the lie is its like a trigger for me that turns me into this psycho and I snap to the point I am going off at them. I know I need professional help but the mental health system in Australia sucks so much and it is extremely hard to get any help.

[Guy13]

Hang in…maybe a social services counselor especially with pregnancy changes and possible post pardon depression coming. Some kind of counseling some kind of way?

[Asker]

I've reached out for help but I have to wait until the end of February before the doctor can do the paperwork for the care plan to refer me to someone and than the waiting list is anywhere from 3 months to over 6 months. Mental health system in Australia sucks, our stupid government even cut funding and now instead of 20 sessions you can only get between 6 and 10 maximum psychologist appointments before you have to wait another 12 months to get anymore.

[Guy13]

Wow, Australia is going through all kinds of changes last 2-3 years. I have Business interest across the International dateline in Thailand. I keep up with your Land.

[Asker]

Our government are screwing us over. The cost of living is also becoming quite unaffordable as well. Yet the government have no problems giving themselves payrises, while everyone else suffers. I hope your business interests are going well.

[Guy13]

It is like a global attack of Communism stealing Public ability to survive.

[Asker]

So very true

[PraviteliNahuiValite]

You are alone in your life as I read, but not alone in this world.

[Asker]

No I truly am alone in life and in this world.

[Asker]

Even when I go on Facebook, I have noticed if I leave a comment, my comment is the one that is always ignored. Like I will see people liking and even responding to other comments and showing support while mine sits there unnoticed and ignored. I even paid for a service from someone and they issued me a refund and I asked them if I am banned from paying for their service as i didn't request the refund and they didn't respond before they deleted my question. I'm not even allowed to join their group but others who this person has blocked have been allowed to rejoin the group.

[PraviteliNahuiValite]

That's odd. I don't know much about facebook though. Some things that seem to suck could be good. Definitely good to be separated from selfish people sooner rather than later.

[Asker]

I genuinely just want to run away and cut myself off from everyone and everything. Honestly no one would even notice im not around and thats the honest truth, but right now being pregnant I'm stuck for now. Someday I will escape and have a happy life, just need to find the funds and find somewhere to set up a new life for both me and my baby because I am miserable and lonely.

[TheAfrikan]

I still hang in since the entire universe won’t hate the same person.

[Asker]

I have to hang in there. I'm pregnant and I have to fight but sometimes the thought of giving my baby up when they are born and quitting life floods my mind. No one will honestly notice or even care if I wasn't around. People don't care or notice and I am here and alive right now.

[Iron_Man]

That’s their problem I’ll find people that like me eventually

[Anonymous]

😆😆😆

[Asker]

Why are you laughing?