24 F I’m having panic attacks because my boyfriend used to look at men and women including trans women? I feel insecure what should I do?

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I’m beginning to hate my body and feel at war with myself. This feeling is ugly and horrible.. it makes me feel like my body isn’t good enough for me and all I’m scared of happening is he’s going to cheat on me for just anyone now. I’ve never had panic attacks like this but now all I’m seeing is those images he had on this Twitter account and it’s stabbing through me like a knife and I feel super insecure about my body. I’ve also been cheated on in the past a lot or left for someone else.

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9 mo
It was before we got together but either way it still HURTS regardless and I’m sensitive overall and have trust issues due to many of my exes cheating on me and the sad part among all is they cheated on me through social media or through work and that’s what terrifies me I know a relationship needs trust but it’s so scary and risky putting your heart out this day and age but I care about him and hope he’ll prove that I can trust him I’m just anxious, I may get therapy😔
24 F I’m having panic attacks because my boyfriend used to look at men and women including trans women? I feel insecure what should I do?
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