I've been secretly hooking up with this guy for almost a year now (next month with be a year). I still live at home with my parents but they don't that I've been seeing him. And no it's not a secret because he's married (he was married in the past though). We met last year on a dating app we went on one date. And then after that, I started going to his place. After about a month he told me that he wasn't ready to date and that he thought he was. But that he was sorry and he knew it wasn't far. By that time I was used to seeing him so I continued. At one point things were bad between us. I honestly thought I'd stop talking to him for good. But now it seems to be going ok. I don't know what to think though. I ask him if I come to see him and he'll tell me when he's free. I go over there we talk, watch movies (sometimes cook), have sex and maybe cuddle. And I spend about six or seven hours with him and then I'll leave.
He's told me personal things and talked a little bit about how he and his ex hurt each other. Sometimes he'll tell me about his mother (she's sick with cancer).
Spending time with him makes me feel comfortable (I rarely feel comfortable with people) I like being in his home whether than going out. I feel safe it's like having a place where I can go and just don't have to think about anything else. I haven't told him this but I kind of said it indirectly he didn't say anything but I could see him smiling.
Eventually (not now) he's going to move an hour away I know that's not really that far. But I'm not sure what to really do. I do talk to other men (not having sex or actually meeting them).
