When I was 17 I did something. I made a mistake that my parents thought didn’t quite fit the norm. They didn’t say that exactly but that’s what they meant and from that moment I looked back at all the past mistakes I made and that’s when I first thought “I need to see a therapist. I need to get myself checked” then the next morning my mum called me over to say that what I’m trying to do wasn’t wise because they will note it down in their record that I signed up to go to therapy and she’s worried that any public enemy would do anything to take my parents down. They are global church leaders you see.
So from then onwards I continued to do all these things, all these mistakes (me forgetting things, me making impulsive decisions etc.) and it’s affecting my relationship with people and my social skills. Up till 19 these things keep getting worse and worse and worse, I would ask my parents every now and then if they will allow me to see a therapist and they would say no for family reasons etc. Most of the things I do would always end with regret and it breaks me every time. It’s also affecting one of my goals in life which is to find love and I never had that real sense of love for years. I want to know what a long term relationship feels like but I feel like I’m not going to get that anytime soon. And thing is I always feel complete when I’m in a relationship so this kind of thing makes me depressed personally.
I’m sorry if what I said Isn’t in a structured manner as I normally go out of structure whenever I’m over passionate about things. But I just want to show you how conflicted I am about making that decision.
So from then onwards I continued to do all these things, all these mistakes (me forgetting things, me making impulsive decisions etc.) and it’s affecting my relationship with people and my social skills. Up till 19 these things keep getting worse and worse and worse, I would ask my parents every now and then if they will allow me to see a therapist and they would say no for family reasons etc. Most of the things I do would always end with regret and it breaks me every time. It’s also affecting one of my goals in life which is to find love and I never had that real sense of love for years. I want to know what a long term relationship feels like but I feel like I’m not going to get that anytime soon. And thing is I always feel complete when I’m in a relationship so this kind of thing makes me depressed personally.
I’m sorry if what I said Isn’t in a structured manner as I normally go out of structure whenever I’m over passionate about things. But I just want to show you how conflicted I am about making that decision.
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Navigating the tightrope of expectations vs. personal needs, especially with that Pastor's Child tag, huh? 😅 It sounds like a roller coaster of EMOTIONS and decisions. Okay, let's get down to it - seeking therapy is like opening the door to understanding yourself, not just for the "oohs" and "aahs" but for real growth and healing. 🌱
Listen, love, it’s ultra-important to tune into what YOU need, especially when it’s about your mental and emotional well-being. Trust me, I’ve seen how bottling things up can make the journey to finding love feel like running in quicksand. 😬
The fear of “records” and “public enemies” might sound like a scene from a thriller novel, but your mental health is the real protagonist here. Therapy is confidential, a safe space designed for YOU to untangle the knots without the world peeking in.
And about love? Ah, falling in love is magical but building a long-term relationship on shaky emotional grounds is like trying to salsa dance on ice – slippery and tricky. 🕺💃 Getting a handle on your own feelings and actions can lead you to the kind of love that’s not just a fleeting spark but a steady flame. 🔥
So, here’s my coach-y advice: Have a heart-to-heart with your parents if possible, but also know that, as an individual, you have the right to seek help and build a healthier, happier you. And who knows? This might just pave the way to finding that love that feels complete, without the side order of regret.
Feel hugged (virtually), and remember, stepping into your own story is the bravest thing you can do. 🤗