I had a really messed up childhood. It will take the rest of my life to fix myself. I wish I could have a kid and raise it but I'm broken. Even if the mom wasn't there anymore I would happily raise a child by myself.
Yet I feel still a lot of pain if I think of such a life. Just the thought of it hurts. Even though the thought of having a child and raising them is a good feeling. The family life in general is what makes me feel sick.
Maybe it's due to my trauma. The idea of family is like toxic or something. It makes me depressed. I don't want to have a kid and boom, now it's time for nothing but work. Because raising kids is a ton of work.
I don't think I can live that life. If I was forced to do the work than I'm just forced to. But by choice? To purposefully have a kid. And then of course what kind of world is this. I know I don't want to live in this world, why raise a kid in it?
I'd love to have a wife and someone to love. But at the same time I love to be alone all the time. I could date. I could have sex. But I don't because I would rather be alone.
I wish I could find a girl to fall for and dedicate my life for our family. But then again, can you really trust these hoes? All that dedication for what? The child is the only thing that matters. The mother is a flip of the coin. You could be the best husband and she still cheats on you. You never know.
Yet I feel still a lot of pain if I think of such a life. Just the thought of it hurts. Even though the thought of having a child and raising them is a good feeling. The family life in general is what makes me feel sick.
Maybe it's due to my trauma. The idea of family is like toxic or something. It makes me depressed. I don't want to have a kid and boom, now it's time for nothing but work. Because raising kids is a ton of work.
I don't think I can live that life. If I was forced to do the work than I'm just forced to. But by choice? To purposefully have a kid. And then of course what kind of world is this. I know I don't want to live in this world, why raise a kid in it?
I'd love to have a wife and someone to love. But at the same time I love to be alone all the time. I could date. I could have sex. But I don't because I would rather be alone.
I wish I could find a girl to fall for and dedicate my life for our family. But then again, can you really trust these hoes? All that dedication for what? The child is the only thing that matters. The mother is a flip of the coin. You could be the best husband and she still cheats on you. You never know.
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This is exactly what I am thinking - from a male perspective.
Toxic families, outside perfect and inside a mess with screaming ad being submissive because a woman. F**ck it, I don't understand why people keep up this "lovely family" image outside and don't get divorced. If my parents divorced I would have lived better my teenage years.. intead I had to cope with his lover and my mum crying in the toilet..
I'd love the idea of finding someone as deep as me but for a kid, I think I am not good parent and also in which world are we living in? Does it make any sense to make a new life to cope with all this capitalism and unjoyful life?
I am too dramatic I know
*and being submissive woman cause she does not work
“.. can you really trust these hoes?” 🤣
You don’t know me. No point in trying to convince you, as I can tell you have your mind made up. I just thought it was funny how you through that line in an otherwise relatable question. I literally lol’d
Not yet, lol.