1. I learned you cannot make money off of religion and be a successful and well adjusted Christian
- I tried leading a bible study for donations
- I tried running a ministry for donations
- I tried to work as a life coach
- I tried to work as an academic counsellor
- I tried to work as a spiritual advisor
- I tried to work as a dream Interpreter
- I tried to use my religion to attract religious guys
- I tried to use my religion to attract Christian business contacts
- I tried to use my religion to get social media style jobs
- I tried to use my religion to create videos for income
- I tried selling religious art
- I tried becoming a religion professor
- I tried creating religious music
- I tried running a Christian day care
What I learned is:
YOU CANNOT MAKE MONEY OFF OFF RELIGION IF YOU ARE PRACTICING YOUR RELIGION PROPERLY. IT DOES NOT WORK. MONEY AND RELIGION ARE LIKE WATER AND OIL. THEY WILL NEVER MIX.
2. Second thing I learned is that
IT’S OKEY TO BE HAPPY.
I think I got the guilt complex from my parents who told me I did not deserve respect or love or dignity or health or friendship or freedom or independence or education or career or happiness.
I remember asking my dad to give me a ride to a tea house so I could drop off my resume. I went into the store and out of politeness I decided to buy a tea to justify my right to be in the store and after buying the tea I dropped off my resume.
When I left the store my dad asked me how things went with the manager and I told him the manager was not there that day so I left my resume with an employee to drop off in the managers mailbox.
Than my dad took the tea I bought and spilled it on the ground saying he wasted his money buying me tea when I failed to get a job and I did not deserve to drink it.
When I was in university my mother told me I did not deserve to have food and shelter because I was a full time student and was not contributing financially to the household.
Christians excluded me from their prayer groups cause I was a very naive and casual person and they did not think I was pious enough or strong enough to deserve their friendship.
From than on I wondered if being happy was a sin. I avoided pleasures like the movie theatre or the bowling alley cause people made me believe I would go to hell if I enjoyed my life while people in third world countries starved to death.
Now I realize that spiritual and mental eudaemonic pleasures are allowed and so is wealth when it is combined with humility and worship and prayer.