I'm going through the same thing right now. It sucks, huh? ):
Is it that feeling where when you think about him, you feel your heart is about to explode right out of your chest?
When someone mentions him or just says his name (not necessarily talking about him, but just the name) you instantly lose your breath, your heart flutters and your brain gets all fuzzy?
When you can't focus because of him?
When you have physical contact with him, you never want to let go... you just want to melt into him?
When you see him, nobody else exists but him?
When your tummy hurts because you haven't talked to him for longer than a day?
When you hug your pillow at night, crying because you wish more than anything it was him?
When you become best friends with God, because he's the only one you can talk about it to?
Yeah, this is me now and it's Hell.
Honestly, I'm trying not to let it ruin my life. I'm trying not to let this control me, but it's SO HARD!
I feel for you girlie, because no girl should have to go through this! If you can, try to tell him how you feel! As for me, he's in college (two years older than me. We went to HS together and had two classes and became good friends, but now I'm a senior in HS and he's a Sophomore in college) and I never get to see him unless he has a concert or I just happen upon him. I'm afraid that the friendship we have built would be ruined if I say anything, so I'm just trying to wait it out... But if you feel like you COULD be in a relationship right now, GO FOR IT! It's just, in my situation, I feel like it's almost not possible. He MAY like me, but since I haven't seen him in a while, I'm just not sure anymore... :( LIVE YOUR LIFE AND LOVE IT! That's what I do. Even though the pain is sometimes unbearable, you just have to see through it and look at the bigger picture! Do all you can, and if it doesn't work out, then so what? You have plenty more time left! This is what I tell myself, and it works! (: Good luck!