Questions: Break Up & Divorce

My ex broke up with me two nights ago. I couldn't see it then, but I now realize it was because of my clingyness and jealousy, all stemming from my issues of insecurity. I feel like I pushed her too far with these issues and caused her to become less attracted to me and ultimately caused her to break things off. I'm devastated, but working on improving myself to figure out how to make sure this doesn't happen again.
I really want your insight on how I can rekindle the relationship. We dated for nine months, the last six months were long distance, but these nine months were a very intense and extremely bonding time. After only two months I had met and stayed with her parents in her childhood home, and after only one month we both said I love you. She was very sad to break up with me (cried the whole time) and said that I am very special to her and she loves me. She said she still wants to be friends, but doesn't know how to not be in a relationship with me. She said she would want to contact me every once in a while, but I said I'll need time, so we decided that I would be the one who contacts her when I'm ready.
I know because our bond was so strong that she still has feelings for me, at least for now. Do I wait to tell her what I've learned, or contact her sometime in the future? My emotions are still very raw so I will definitely wait some time, but maybe this relationship is just over? please help

So tell me whats the point of keeping your ex lover on fb, whats app etc.., if you make it clear to them to move on, that it's over, and how much you hate them and dispise them.

yet you keep them on social media, eventually answer a phone call they make etc...

Maybe im wrong but if you hate someone , and you tell them you don't like them anymore, why won't you just bann them and delete them from all social media. I think it's hypocrit to say one thing but dont follow up with any logic actions.

I fell in love with the girl and we got together about a year and a half or so ago. However we have broken up about 3 months ago. the reason why we broke up was cause i would force myself onto her. I would do so because she denied me sex. I would get pissy and bitchy (bitching about her past (which i will talk about later) trying to guilt trip her into sex) or i would touch her in attempt to turn her on. This was however at the expense of her heath as we always liked it rough and after awhile her vajayjay was injured... in the way that she had meds to take to help ease the pain. if im not wrong she had an ovarian cyst or something. But even after her getting hurt id continue to fore myself onto her every now and then until one day she left.

Back story: I am actually really traditional when it comes to relationships and didn't even kiss a girl until i was with her (at the age of 18). however she lost her virgin to her previous bf who due to the word limit i shant continue. But anws, this affected me as i felt she was tainted. i was really insecure about her past and the time i felt secure felt like nothing else mattered was when we had sex. which was why i got addicted to it after awhile... we started sex a month into our relationship. thus the foundation of our relationship was built mainly around sex.. so when she asked me to stop it was really hard. at times i would act with out thinking. I really regret what i have done cause i really do love every atom that makes her being...

Question: I have not talked to her for about 2 months now and recently started but i can tell that she's pushing me away as she gives me few word replies or she'll say "ttyl" and not talk to me anymore. I spent these 2 months reflecting and finding myself once more and now that i feel that there is progress and i am able to finally accept her past i want to get back with her, start a fresh and show that i love her and not lust for her. but i dont know what to do. any suggestions?

PLEASE HELP ME OUT GUYS!!

It's been a month since my break up of 10 months. I am in no contact since one month (contacted one time though for apologizing ie 5 days after Breakup). During NC i reminded each and every cause why she broke up with me at first place and I am regretting that, I am a changed person now and I want her back in my life.

Now since one week she's giving me mixed signals by changing her Whatsapp status and she's also login-ed my Facebook account 3 times in the same week (I haven't changed my password yet).

I am totally Confused what to do should I approach her!

Or should I change my password and show her that I have moved on.

Or should I send her signals too?

On the other hand m scared, what if she says no after if I approach her.
I don't wanna be in her friend zone too.

I love her very much and I know she's also emotionally attached.!

Guys please help me, need your opinion!!.