Was I in love with him if I still think about what happened 6 months later?

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We texted only, I stalked his posts on a political forum and found him to be very intelligent, and snarky/witty.

I messaged him and we got along well at first, but then it became slightly abusive (he negged me, we were passive aggressive at some point). Then he ended it.

I’m usually a very private, introverted person, but it was the first time id opened up to someone and been vulnerable with them and my emotions, thoughts and insecurities.

I was slightly traumatized and depressed after he ended it, though I’m better now.

I still think over what happened from time to time. Is it possible I’m just being hard on myself for having been too open/vulnerable and ashamed by the rejection, or did I genuinely have feelings for him?
Was I in love with him if I still think about what happened 6 months later?
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