I try to compare my single self to my taken self.
When I was in a relationship:
I was acting more mature,
I was more patient, less impulsive,
less selfish, kinder, more empathetic,
more responsible, better person ,
I wasn’t flirty with anyone but my ex,
I was more empathetic even, different person from the butterfly life I live now.
Yes, I was still playful but I was also somehow a nicer person. (Which my ex didn’t always like as he said he fell for me when I was my selfish, impulsive, careless, unapologetic self -the way I am now)
I am now single and I am so flirty, so playful, acting silly, impulsive, impatient, selfish.
I feel like I lost my mind. What happened to me when I was so much more mature? How did I regress back to my 22 yo self again?
Yes, I am more experienced now and have learned more and I am probably still better than I was at 22, but I am also less mature and responsible than I was in a relationship.