My husband died last year in a freak accident at work. I was so depressed afterwards and still am slightly. He was the love of my life and best friend. He did everything for me and was so caring I was left so lost without him alone with are children.
He was my first love and we were 5 years apart so he kinda guided me few my young adult years and supported me a lot. I was total mess without him but I knew had to be strong for my babies. I can't imagine how hard I was for them to lose there dad and then to see me go into deep depression. I still feel guilty about it as if I wasn't there for them whilst they were also hurting.
Luckily I have a amazing family and his mother and mine really teamed together and kicked my ass back into gear. I also have this friend I've been friends with for years and he also lost his girlfriend 5 years ago. As soon as he heard what happened he was there for me and my children holding my hand every second.
He was utterly amazing and my children see him as a uncle the only thing is later on in the year me and this friend starting sleeping together. I don't have feelings for him in that way and the same goes for him too. We are still really grieving are partners and it feels like he's the only other person who understands me and my feelings it's just like a comfort thing for me. As sad and crazy as it sounds we've both broken down before during sex and we've just held each other and cried it out.
Its hard because no one will ever replace my husband and I know he feels the same about his girlfriend too. I worry if my husband would be proud or disappointed with me.
He was over one night and my mum came over without letting me know and let herself in. The kids were asleep and me and my friend were cuddling in bed together. My mum was trying to look for me around the house without waking the kids and walked in on us in my room.
She instantly closed the door and ran away.
She just looked down at the ground and ignored me
