Well, I know GaG isn't really a platform for counseling not anything but I'm really confused with my situation.
I've recently realised that there has literally been years since I was able to actually make irl friends and nowadays it seems as if it's simply impossible for me to come off my shell, and I find myself often avoiding social interactions out of fear of judgement, etc.
I haven't felt anything too extreme as fast heart beating nor sweating, but it's still distressing.
I've reached a point where I don't know how to socialise anymore, even if there's a classmate next to me, I still won't be able to come up with anything to ask or to talk about. I've also always had trouble relating to people so I've never had many friends but yeah...
And I basically only realised that this is getting serious when I found myself spending all my break time in the toilet or the library cos these were the only peaceful places without anyone I know.
I don't know, I don't think my behaviour is normal and my tactic and social skills deteriorated so much over time. I'm scared I won't be able to pass a job interview, do networking, make friends nor have a normal life ever.
I thought about getting help but for this I'd need to tell my situation to my parents, and I don't wanna worry them. Besides, I feel embarrassed for feeling this way.
I'm aware I need to change, but it's so hard. It's as if I don't have the courage to change :(
l just wanted to give a big shoutout and thanks to all of you who shared your awesome advice on my social anxiety post. Your support means a lot to me, and l've already learned so much from your experiences. I wish could pick more than two "most helpful" answers because you've all been incredibly helpful. Cheers to you all!