"she's so ugly " a girl in my gym glass once said as she whispered to her friend as she walked by while staring at me.
I know it's not my personality, these people don't know me personally. In the 10th grade, I audited a freshman class and the first day I walk in all the kids laugh at me and one girl said jokingly "Hey, my friend likes you!" This happens to me constantly "Hey, my friend like you" is what people say to me to tease their friends . I sometimes hear "Do you think that girl's pretty" and usually they say no. People talk about me while sitting across from me, an inch away. I am in the 11th grade now and as I was walking to the school buses a kid yelled at me at the window "Hey fat ass nose, fat ass nose!" sometimes when I walk by people I hear them say "she has a big ass nose!"
I never knew I had a big nose until someone told me. I just thought everyone had a different size nose . I never knew nose size was that important. I have never had a boyfriend. I hate to go in public now because I'm worried what people will think of me. I just wanna be treated like a human. I feel like an outcast. I sometimes wish I owned a different face. I do not wish to have children because A. I doubt anyone would want to touch me and B. I don't want my kids to be teased. Why are humans so cruel? My self esteem is now a -13 . I just wish I didn't know I was ugly so I could be more confident. What's wrong with people these days? I feel like I am at a lower class of human being. I feel even worse for the fact that all they guys I crush on are the type I'd never have a chance with and they are always the "hot" popular guy at school. So why do people always put others down?
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People can be cruel. Notice I said "people" and not "kids?" Unfortunately, some people find the best way to make themselves feel better about themselves is to put other people down.
I do not believe for one minute that it is socially encouraged to be mean to ugly people. I think it may be acceptable by some people who are bullies, and by bullies only.
You will find as you get older, that there are many good hearted people out here who are not superficial. However, there are just as many who are. As you mature, you will "grow a thick skin," so to speak. Get a good mantra going for yourself, repeat after me, CONSIDER THE SOURCE. When anyone digs at you like that, you need to consider the source. They are nobody to you, they do not matter. When you let them get to you, you make them important in your life. They aren't. Do you want people like that to be in your life at all? Oh, h*ll no! Just forget about it. I know, easier said than done, but work on it. KNOW that they are full of it. You are a gorgeous girl, a lovely young lady.
And you will grow into your nose. Trust me. Look at Celine Dion, Barbara Streisand, Madonna.
Even with a little work, she still keeps her nose, because it's cool. Look at Padma Lakshi? Hot, big nose. Check it out.
Trust me, those meanies will come up against karma in their lives. And you will have good karma. Many blessings to you.