Can you tell a little about your life story against mental illness?

[wa1t1ngFuture]

My story started when I was 9 years old (2014) I experienced Anxiety Disorder and continues until now. since childhood I am a person who does not like crowds / meet a lot of people / have a lot of friends. In 2018 I suffered from OCD at the extreme level until 2019. lately i have been suffering from panic attacks and i took to the doctor and was diagnosed with high stomach acid and panic attacks.

I dropped out of public school 2018 and now homeschooling one of the goals is to treat my illness.

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[Anonymous]

I moved to the US after spending all of my life at that point overseas (military life). It was such a big culture shock, and with homesickness, the poor educational quality, and being at the age where everyone had already formed their friendships and cliques, I really started to grow isolated and depressed. Then my parents divorced, my mother became more emotionally manipulative and terrifying than before, and my father moved away. I also had sister’s that we’re following in the path of my mother and becoming increasingly cruel and manipulative. My depression combined with anger, I started self-harming, thinking of suicide, and while I didn’t lose my high grades, I lost all motivation towards learning and future plans. I made a contract with myself that I would live to 18, just to finish that experience of high school (later pushed it back to 21 for college). At the age of 13 I told my father I wanted to die, and spent a week in a psychiatric ward where I discovered just how disgusting therapists are. After I was released (just lied to their faces and they let me go), my mother refused to get my medicine refilled. I got better for a short while, just by myself, but then fell into a stagnant period of not caring and anger. I struggled with depression and anxiety throughout high school, but I have only resorted to self-harm twice since my hospitalization at 13. I’m better now, but I’ve significantly lost any attachment to life. I’m not suicidal, and if I do die, I’d prefer to do so quickly and painlessly, but it wouldn’t bother me to actually die.

[wa1t1ngFuture]

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[hypojoe]

I was born with hypospadias and its been a life long battle from when I was younger the anxiety, anger issues, trust issues, and let me tell you life would be so much diffrent I would be a diffrent person all together if i was not born that way, no way would I tell anyone in person that

[wa1t1ngFuture]

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[wa1t1ngFuture]

your story is very sad, I also have problems with the urinary tract since 2018 until now ( weak nerves, after urinating a few minutes later it will come out a little and it really interferes with my life that's what got me out of school

[wa1t1ngFuture]

are you married?

[hypojoe]

I did not even know what it was called till I got my first computer that was age 20 its tough can keep a relationship because of it , I had surgery when I was 5 did not know it failed til I was 20

[hypojoe]

No I have only had 3 relationships its got me messed up in the head every thing works good just its not right and I get very jelous after last relationship I just gave up on that and try to stay busy

[hypojoe]

I just think im damaged goods i never got the medical help i needed because of a devorce and when i was in my 30's i had appointment but I canceled because of layoff from work