Eating disorder, Will I be forever alone because of the disorder? I have had relationships with guys.. But the disorder takes over my mind somethimes?

[Anonymous]

I can't recover, because then I can't leave my house and enter extreme depression. To the point of hospitalization. I have struggled with anoerxia since 4th grade, and I really can afford to be fat again. I love this new me. I love the way guys and girls look at me. Why is it for me I can't eat like everyone else and maintain their figures? Will I ever be able to be happy without killing my body? The funny thing is i dont even look anoerxic, yeah my bones show.. but I'm not deathly thin, I just am at inner peace, but I hate being so cold, not getting my period, and all the other horrible affects of it. How does one become happy with their body after this? I recovered one and holy shit I can never go back to that low point in my life.. I felt so disgusting.. Not valued.. I know this is unhealthy but I like to be viewed as special and beautiful.. and the truth is at a normal weight I had no edge. I looked so different.. like my actual face looked different. and You couldnt see my body shape..

[Michelle1110]

ok so I read this and its exactly what I have done except I haven't had anorexia
here's my advice
every morning get up at about maybe 5 or 4, have a glass maybe 2 glasses of water, eat your favourite food (doesn't matter if its healthy or not, but have something healthy every day) after you have finished, you can listen to your favourite music and do sit- up's for a skinnier tummy or what ever you want to do to but it has to m=be exercise for at least 30 mins to an hour or longer. contently have loads of water. do this everyday and night. eat how u want to but don't over eat or throw up after u have eaten it makes it even worse !!!
oh and make a motto like "everyday im getting better and better " or name a positive thing about you but you have to believe in this or it won't work !

please please don't do this
don't make yourself perfect for others
your perfect the way you are
socity is never please
either your TOO skinny
or TOO fat
or TOO much of a goodie two shoes
or TOO much this
or TOO much that etc
all you have to do this BELIEVE
and I promise
you and everyone around you
will be much better off
don't worry about depression
believe me I know because I do have depression
and im fighting against it
you can win this !!!
find friends who don't care if you're too this or too that
but please don't starve yourself
you're perfect the way you are no matter what others say
you will ALWAYS BE SPECIAL IN YOUR OWN WAY !!!

[KaisaEeva]

First if you struggle with depression, make sure you are seeking help, its worth going to the doctor and talking to them about it. If you struggle eating large meals, look at spacing them less frequently but eating less, hence not 3 large meals, but maybe 5 or 6 small ones, this would help you eat, and I personally would prepare them the night before for the next day, that way its easier to see what to eat and how much so you don't over eat or under eat. Also, try to look at finding hobbies that you enjoy, start painting or drawing, learn a new skill, spend time outside. The best suggestion would be find something that tries to get you out of the house, that you enjoy, and that gets your attention focused away from your body and the food. The best thing would be volunteering, its easy to meet new people who are generally friendly, and it makes you feel better about giving back. Its more about trying to get your self confidence back, but know that it will take a while, and it will always be a struggle, but get a good support system with friends and family that support you. Also, give the things at least two chances, don't judge solely by the first time because you don't really know what your doing and don't know the people around you generally.

[Ringor]

Please eat! I don't know what your seeking in a response but please, you need to eat.

The fact that you don't have your period scares me.

If your "healthy" weight wasn't satisfying for you then you went about it all wrong.

Being heathy and thin are completely different than just being thin. If you want to feel better about yourself and be healthier you can't just eat more. You do need to exercise.

From the point you're at right now you'd have at least 6 months to become healthy. You need to gain muscle mass by exercising. Just gaining weight "fat" is healthier than being too thin, but not what you're looking for.

If you do want to fix this, and have a better body image. I highly recommend you seek someone that specialized in body dismorphia.

You're not the one to blame either. Society is the problem. From the time you were born there have been fake images of how you should look, they're fake. Even models are photoshopped to unrealistic shapes and sizes.

You talk about wanting to be viewed as special and beautiful. No one will view you that way till you do yourself.

You can be thin and healthy, but you need to gain muscle. It's not a quick fix, but I know you'll feel better. And I know it's not the right way to view the, but counting calories so you have the right intake can help fill the void so that you feel in control, but this isn't a calorie intake you decide. It's one a doctor sets for you and says this is what your body requires for your metabolism.

[Ringor]

Please choose to be healthy. And to begin feeling beautiful. Every morning when you look in the mirror. Every single negative thing you think, you need to tell yourself two positive things.

If you think, my hair looks terrible. Compliment yourself twice. I. e. I have beautiful eyes. My outfit looks great. Essentially look in the mirror everyday and say this aloud "I am beautiful." Look yourself in the eyes when you do it, and do it every morning.

Sources: personal eating disorder& depression

[p0rtis26]

You can easily achieve a nice figure and eat!! EAt a healthy diet get cardio and feel confident. MAybe you need professional help

[bbyblue]

wow, i totally understand how you feel. I useto have an eating disorder too. The only thing i can say is that it never gets better, you'll always have an unhealthy relationship with food. the best thing i did to me was eat once a day, but eat a lot-i'm still skinny but i eat, and i eat healthy-plusi try not to think about it-it actually works not thinking about it-just see black when you think of food etc.