I cheated on my boyfriend with his best friend help?

My boyfriend and I became a couple about a year ago. Around finals time my boyfriend was so overwhelmed with school and we didn't get to talk as much as both of us would have liked so this caused a lot of fighting and bickering between us. One fight was so bad I just needed someone to talk to so I called the person who knew my boyfriend more than anyone, his best friend. I was a mess and called his best friend and we hung out. We went bowling, just to get my mind off of things. We we're at a resort and went swimming. He had a room at the resort for the night so we went up and one thing lead to another and we ended up in the shower together but nothing happened. We went swimming and thats when it started to get heated. Next thing I know we are back in the room and we had sex. It just happened. I wanted so bad to tell my boyfriend but his best friend convinced me otherwise, saying it was only going to do a lot more harm than good. We had sex over 15 times in a 2 month period. I thought that he cared about me and I devoloped a small crush on him. I guess I just needed someone physically there for me. There were times where we wouldn't have sex and just hang out but it got to the point where something sexual always happened. A few times he would take out his penis and force my head down to give him oral. I would say no but he made me give him head. I hated it but I don't know why I kept cheating. His best friend and I stopped having oral and sex around Valentines day because we had a pregnancy scare and because my boyfriend was starting to get suspicious. His best friend and I both lied to his face for 6 months before someone finally told my boyfriend the truth. I don't know why I did it, I knew what it would cause but yet I continued to do it. I lied because I had a hope that he wouldn't find out that I slept with his best friend. My Boyfriend forgave me and dropped out of school to be with me. I just want him to know that I still love him.
I cheated on my boyfriend with his best friend help?
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