There's plenty of questions I could ask right now that surround this topic, like Can love ever be rational? The guy I'm talking about is one I'm actually seeing right now, without the official relationship title. I don't know why he's only on my mind casually instead of frequently. Why don't I feel that deep connection when he and I have so much in common and he actually values me? I read this article that listed reasons why a person may not fall in love. Here are the reasons: `1. Fear of intimacy, 2. Low self worth, 3. Dependency, 4. Abandonment issues, 5. Codependency, 6. Attachment issues, 7. childhood abuse, 8. addictive behaviors, 9. perfectionism, 10 personality disorder. If I'm not mistaken, I have all of these issues... Don't know how to heal from them exactly though and to know when I'm healed (I'm in therapy by the way and been in it for months). I do wonder if I heal from these things and more, if I'd actually fall for this guy? I'm not sure if something is just blocked off from me feeling completely (because I honestly have not fell in love with anyone deeply except for maybe once, and that was 2016. I'm 28.) or if I just genuinely don't have feelings. I ask because it's been a little over a month, and although he's willing to wait for me, I don't want him waiting too long.
Why don't I love him the way he loves me? He's such a great guy for me. Why don't I feel anything?
