I have social anxiety and a crush help?

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I have a crush on someone who's my cousin's relative we rarely see each other and it's usually only during family occasions we were close as kids i'm slightly older than him he used to have a crush on me before
but now i'm crushing on him and many things have changed and he's a lot taller than me now
I have social anxiety and don't know how i should approach him helpp even if he won't like me back i just wanna talk and hang with him again
He does ask about me and throw some comments out of nowhere like for example; i'm enjoying something and he would pass by and say "you sure like that stuff or doing that stuff" and that's it
sometimes i'd be playing some games on my phone on a room away from everyone else and he'd be there watching and i wouldn't even know until i turn my head around cuz maybe he's secretly an assassin and not my real childhood friend an impostor ordered to assassinate me, yes, i internally died.
I hate that i get like this most of the
time.
He might actually wanna talk to me and i'm acting like a snob bitch.
What is wrong with me. 😭😭

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I have social anxiety and a crush help?
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