I was abused in every way imaginable in my last 7 year relationship… I got therapy and have been diagnosed with PTSD, Agoraphobia, Anxiety and depression. I do not take medication for it because I generally do not like meds..
So, I started dating this guy for a few months.. He sort of came out of nowhere, we hit it off, and I was very timid because of my past relationship has really fucked me up when it comes to intimacy and silencing that voice in my head telling me that I’m not worthy or anything good with someone.
Me and my guy get along great, he treats me very well, the chemistry is amazing… great..
Now for some reason, I still get very “what if” and come up with scenarios and insecurities in my head. He asks me what’s wrong because I guess he can tell something is up. I tell him it’s nothing or that I don’t want to talk about it…. He asks me to communicate with him.. so I do. And when I share the insecurity or scenario, he gets upset at me for thinking it.. he’s not like mean or anything but becomes distant and it’s like this is exactly why I didn’t want to say what was bothering me because I know these scenarios aren’t real, it’s just my ptsd getting the best of me.
I feel he’s a really great man and that I don’t deserve him and he doesn’t deserve to have my insecurities or mental health bs on his shoulders but I don’t know what to do…. I care about him a lot but I truly don’t think I will ever be fit for a relationship.. especially one that’s long term. I accepted that for myself and then he comes out of nowhere..
He’s currently upset with me. And I don't know what to do because at least once a week this happens and I know it’s not healthy.. any advice would be appreciated….
So, I started dating this guy for a few months.. He sort of came out of nowhere, we hit it off, and I was very timid because of my past relationship has really fucked me up when it comes to intimacy and silencing that voice in my head telling me that I’m not worthy or anything good with someone.
Me and my guy get along great, he treats me very well, the chemistry is amazing… great..
Now for some reason, I still get very “what if” and come up with scenarios and insecurities in my head. He asks me what’s wrong because I guess he can tell something is up. I tell him it’s nothing or that I don’t want to talk about it…. He asks me to communicate with him.. so I do. And when I share the insecurity or scenario, he gets upset at me for thinking it.. he’s not like mean or anything but becomes distant and it’s like this is exactly why I didn’t want to say what was bothering me because I know these scenarios aren’t real, it’s just my ptsd getting the best of me.
I feel he’s a really great man and that I don’t deserve him and he doesn’t deserve to have my insecurities or mental health bs on his shoulders but I don’t know what to do…. I care about him a lot but I truly don’t think I will ever be fit for a relationship.. especially one that’s long term. I accepted that for myself and then he comes out of nowhere..
He’s currently upset with me. And I don't know what to do because at least once a week this happens and I know it’s not healthy.. any advice would be appreciated….
