I did my best. What do I do? I gave my early 20s to 2 men and I live the regret everyday. My youth is gone. I was never going out, not in touch with family, not looking good or feeling good, not letting anyone see me, I had to ask permission to eat and shower, my apartment was stalked to make sure I wasn’t leaving, I was letting him have his way, I submitted and sacrificed my happiness, etc. and he still picked someone else who he met at the club/studio. He said it’s because “you can have anybody you want men still look at you you didn’t change” he said it takes 3 years to fully break a woman down and me giving everything up for a year and 3 months wasn’t enough. he also told me to get a back bone and do wherever I want like a grown woman should when I followed his rules. He threw it back in my face and said that I’m a desperate people pleaser and did everything a nigga said. The other guy said that the sexiest woman to a man is a woman does whatever she wants. He also said I can have anyone I want so he didn’t take things seriously. They keep using me being able to have someone else against me.
In the end I was so broken when I did all that and didn’t get picked to the point where I had to get therapy. Why wasn’t it enough. I did everything they wanted and they get still found a fault and said other men want me so go there. Why?
In the end I was so broken when I did all that and didn’t get picked to the point where I had to get therapy. Why wasn’t it enough. I did everything they wanted and they get still found a fault and said other men want me so go there. Why?
